17n18 Hell

what the hell lah

work got problem

school got problem

relationship got problem

what the hell is going on.

There's just so many barriers I need to leap past to become the person im supposed to be.

it's really very scary honestly. It's something I haven't thought would be so difficult.


And im actually quite weak because the truth is that others have started, ran and sold their tuition business for close to a million before university even started. and he's younger than me.

Why am i triggered?

because i know i can do better, and that i am jealous of the person doing it. and i am jealous because i know that it's possible. and all the crap i tell myself is all fucking BULLSHIT. bullshit excuses and bullshit lies to myself to make things harder than they actually are.

what's the truth? the truth is that im definitely not stepping up and its really quite disgusting.

bear in mind i also have a fucking spanish test next monday are you kidding me.

and i need to worry about 100381942940342 other fucking issues.

im so tired of my own bullshit you have no idea.