Its obvious my consciousness and awareness has fallen off the cliff.
Shit.
Yesterday was guns n roses concert, and i did not do anything the whole day; using excuses like oh i'll get things started after GnR.
Well nothing started and my entire life is relapsing again. I need to do my weekly review this monday but nobody is keeping me accountable other than you dear readerwoof.
it's like all the clarity and gains from the past is starting to slip up 2 weeks into the interaction. It's as if i make it sound so difficult, when it actually is not that bad.
what do i know that is true but i'm not acknowledging?
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1. It's gonna be harder than i expect to handle the guys development of the game - the lack of momentum and being distanced makes everything difficult to coordinate, and the quality and momentum is pretty much a black box.
Yet, until we are able to get contracted properly, it's not going to be easy because it's just going to be based off commitment - and i am not sure about how committed they are yet. I am adopting a hands off perspective first, because i feel it's fair to give them the trust and faith to move things forward. But after a given checkpoint if they are not able to deliver or are not willing, then things are gonna be tough.
I need to light a fire under their asses, and I am not sure how we can get about doing this.
I will discuss with Aunty Val regarding this and see if I can get any vesting documentation up, and look at founder's dilemmas.
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2. I'm going to have to fuck the conman or agree to his crap.
I think im opting for fuck first, agree when i have time.
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3. Spanish Class
There's a huge backlog of stuff to study for and class starts tomorrow - i think i will meet the TA for a semi-consult before class to ensure I understand what's happened + email prof to let them know what happened.
Will also submit the essay and the la familia backlog that I've accumulated. I feel like an absolute turd right now - I keep absolving responsibility in the small moments to other "more important" priorities.
Which really does not help my cause.
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4. Econometrics Class
I am fucked up for this mod. I have so much studying I need to do and I can't get clarity because the startup is tearing me apart. I need to settle stuff and gain clarity, then get back to running the business. I need a guy on my side.
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5. Marketing for the Company
-Set up the website first.
-Set up the landing pages next.
-Just keep improving them and changing strategies every few weeks.
-Market courses for March holidays.
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6. Handling the JP conundrum
-Might need to look at a more full-time kinda person to come in and work with us
-I am thinking of undergraduate comsci students - probably some people in DP or something like that
-If not, Poly Comsci guys are also workable, but only after a strong brand is built.
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This is so hard to do. It's like everywhere you look there are mountains and battles to fight and fires to put out. I'm really quite worried about the work now and there's so much uncertainty going on right now.
But the goals I am gunning for:
1. Corner the tuition market for Coding
2. Start and corner the physics market for tuition - adaptive learning
3. Build the adaptive learning system and synchronize them with (2.)
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Challenges:
1. Loss of motivation for the guys
2. Financial management of resources
3. Energy and mindspace to handle marketing for the entire project
4. Energy and mindspace to handle studying
fuck me i am dying.
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