So exhausted right now. Drama on relationship's end and much work to do on works end and much studying to do and much weight to lose.
Feeling quite demoralized recently but I just need to keep pushing... And really see if the relationship is truly for me.
Had another argument because I was supposed to have dinner with my parents but she demanded that we meet instead. Read: Demanded.
So what is this again another round of emotional blackmail? Makes everything I do feel so obligatory.
Then when I tell her so she gets upset and runs away.
Maybe it's because she's actually afraid that deep down if she doesn't demand things from me that I won't initiate or give things to her or that I'll care. Truth is this has been a theme of the relationship, and it honestly may be better that we break.
I don't know.
Super tired. See how la fuck
Which brings to me the fact that my personal energy is shit and all the momentum I gained the past 9 days is almost lost. Some residual clarity here and there but largely lost.
So irritating.
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