FBro Day 8: Better That We Break?

I almost broke up with Chloe yesterday.

Our dynamic is so strange. I need to reassess what's right and wrong about our relationship, and at it's core this dynamic is key.

In our relationship she has to be the one to put in the energy and initiative, or it will come out weird. Meaning I (sometimes) am just not willing. Da fuck.

Not to mention I feel that this can be super unhealthy for both her and I, for I keep taking, while she keeps giving.

ugh.

Anyways. We patched back together for a little bit... and I feel that the signs are telling me; not yet.

So. Not yet lah cb.

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Speaking of which I ate putu mayam at night last night at 1 plus am. First time I ate something I shouldn't have for the duration of this program. Fuck.

Look's like I need to fucking step up.

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Meeting the guys later for some workworkworkworkwork, and discussions.

Let's see where this leads us.

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Going to gym now with Jerry. HEHEHEHE

kbye

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Had a particularly intense strength based workout today. Quite Glad other than the deadlifts I was still able to keep up and in fact it was easier than I had imagined. This is going better than I could have planned.

On the negative side I'm not even sure about Chloe anymore or whether she will be an impediment to my growth. She's asking for things I'm not in the position to give, and she's emotionally shitting on me as always.

Might break up before end of February. See how things go.