And i guess i must admit that since JC i was afraid. Afraid to compete with these academic powerhouses, content to stick in the place I'm most comfortable in, with nobody to judge me, to push me, but myself.
The darkest sides of my soul knows that i gave it up in part for the love of entrepreneurship but also the fear of competition and failure.
For failing at this stage will relegate me to the dogs. Outcast and separate from those who can. And then what of my promised land? Where would be my milk and honey?!
So no. Don't compete Fred. You know you will lose. Stay safe in your own way. Walk your own path. That way nobody has the right to tell you otherwise. Take it late, rush every time papers near, so if you fail it would not be because you're not good enough. But because you didn't have enough time.
And in this process, forsake also the learning and growth these developing years affords you. Choose to learn from elsewhere instead.
Forsaken.
So now we all know don't we. The fraud I've made myself out to be.
This has to stop. The joke can't continue. The facade is cracking. The curtain is falling.
Oh demons. It's time again to face you. May i summon the strength in me to fight.
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